Comeback Time...

I was reading this article on Whitney Houston this morning in the LA Times and I realized that everyone goes through a tough time in their life. The only difference is that celebrities have to do it with the entire world watching where we do it with just friends and family watching. I absolutely love Whitney Houston and part of me could relate with what she was going through in her marriage. However, when we are in the middle of chaos, we can't see it. And then when we do, we wonder "how did I get here? and how am I going to turn things around?". In a way, we all have "comebacks" in our lives, they're just not as public as the celebrities.

I guess Create your own...Journey is my "comeback". I was knocked around by life for two years when my son was born unexpectedly at 29 weeks and spent the first 6 months of his life in a hospital NICU. Talk about all your hopes & dreams of bringing your newborn baby home and your life being like it is is the magazine just vanishing... day by day... and you start to wonder will your life ever get back to normal??? Actually, you start to wonder what the hell is normal??? because you lose that concept when the doctors tell you that your son may not make it out of surgery that day...

So here I sit today, blessed that my son's alive and my marriage is still in tact after 2 years of chaos. Ready for my comeback...

Reading that article this morning gave me a new way to think about my journey. It's my journey back... my comeback!
Now all I need is a promo video like Whitney :-)

Leaving it all Behind

I was in Laguna Beach Wed, Thurs & Friday and it was a wonderful trip with beautiful weather. I couldn't have asked for better weather or a better whale watching trip. Very relaxing... but I realized as the Hotel Bellman left the room with our luggage, the reason for the trip was what I did as I looked around the hotel room before I left. I said, "It's over. I'm leaving everything here and moving on." All my baggage stayed in that hotel room on Friday morning...my fears, my doubts, my insecurities. They were all left behind. On the way home, I stopped at the Wyland Gallery and found inspiration. My newly created life will be about ME and me only. What I love, what I stand for, what I want to create for myself, my family and the imprint I want to leave in the world. As women we learn not to promote ourselves. Not to bask in the glory of all that we are and who we've become. I will no longer fall into that category. I am embracing who I am and who God made me to be and I'm going to share that with the world. I'm finally leaving IT all behind and moving forward!

Discipline

Today I learned about discipline while walking on the beach. I realized that I haven't done any of the things I promised myself that I would do. I don't get up and walk every morning. I do not exercise. I do not keep a schedule for Momma Wear. I do not take Dylan to the park everyday. I lack discipline. My past experience tells me that in order for me to succeed, I must have discipline and do the things I promise myself that I will do. If I do my part, then God will do the rest. But I haven't been doing my part and I feel like my life and my business are falling apart right now. I turn 40 tomorrow and instead of celebrating the new me like I had hoped, I'm celebrating the old me. Same habits, same lifestyle same ole thing!
Today I remembered that change starts with me...